26 years and still strong.

It's my parents 26th anniversary today. Father Tom said a mass just for us and renewed my parents wedding vows. it was nice. I love my parents. they're my favorite ever. :)

other then that today wasn't so special.. I spent most of the day babysitting my little siblings while my parents were on a date. and then I went off to swim.and now I'm at home feeling very sleepy. apparently we're gonna watch "How to Train Your Dragon" in a little bit. I like that movie.
ahhhhhhhhhhhg. I don't know. I'm not in a very happy mood. and usually when I'm like this I get on facebook and talk to my friends and it makes me happy. but because I'm off facebook I'm gonna have to find another way to get out of this angst. *SIGH* maybe I should go journal or something.. I don't know. I miss my sisters... I haven't talked to Karen or Clara in a long time. I want them home. skype isn't enough for me... I just have a really hard talking to people over skype. hmmm. *SIGH* AHHHHGDSAEWIds kqa;eojafsdmcAPWQOIRKADi
mmmk. I think Ice Cream will make things better.... bed would be good too. :P
over and out for today.

Quote.

"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our Light, not our Darkness, that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you NOT to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightening about shrinking so that other people won't feel unsure around you. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It is not just in some of us; it is in everyone. As we let our own Light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others" Marianne Williamson.

Sick Tuesday.

phoooooooaaaaa. Why am I so TIRED!?!? Ahhhhhhhg! I had THE most WONDERFUL sleep last night. I went to bed at 10:00, and got up at around 8:00 without waking up inbetween, so why on earth do I feel like I could pass out on spot? it's not faaaaaaair. *SIGH* there's a cold going around my house. I had it a little bit last week, and then my mom came down with it hard and now my brother has it. I guess I'm coming down with cold round two. I rode my bike to the library this morning to pick some stuff up, and it totally wiped me out. I just brought some laundry up the stairs, and half way up I felt like I couldn't pull myself up another step and I was gonna fall backwards. that didn't happen, but it's just like, come on! really now? really? *sigh* I hate being sick. it slows down my productivity. I don't like that. I like being productive. I like being super woman. *SIGH*

Yesterday was really hard for some reason. swim was hard. I don't know why. I just wanted to get out of there as soon as possible. and then rehearsal seemed to last foreeeeverrrr.. it was fun at times, but it kinda made me wanna curl up and die. oh well though. that's show biz. :P

random fact, my toenails are pink today. pink with a silver line down the middle. yup.

Random fact number two. JESUS LOVES YOU. just sayin.

SCARY FACT! my little sister, as of yesterday, is taking Kung Fu. I kid you not. I'M GONNA BE SISTER OF THE KUNG FU PANDA! now, this scares me a little bit, but at the same time I'm excited for her. it's gonna be an interesting experience.

Sad fact.... I think my bunny died today. No, it's not because I was negligent, it was because he was an old bunny. poor bunny. hope he's happy in bunny heaven.... now, I'm not positively sure he's dead... I think he is cause he's just laying in his cage with his eyes open, and he doesn't look like he's breathing. so I think he's dead.. hmm...

okay. I'm gonna do something productive now. or I'm gonna try... :P

Monday Morning.

It's excatly 8:04 right now. my friends are probably at school. I'm here in my pink fuzzy robe and my pink fuzzy slippers sitting in my pink fuzzy chair. The radio is on and currently playing Teenage Dream by Katy Perry. I hate that song... "over played" is a understatement to say the least. I think I'll turn off the radio now...
My dad started the wood stove today. the first fire of the year is always my favorite. the smell brings back memories. it's probably not a really pleasant smell to most people.. it kind of smells like burning hair a little bit... but it's special to me if that makes any sense. and then there's the smell of your cloths burning when you stand too close to the fire when trying to get warm. I like that smell too... hahahaha I don't know. it's just a comforting smell to me. It's the sign that Fall is defiantly here and Winter is coming. I'm hoping we have a really snowy winter like we had in 2008. that was probably my favorite winter ever. :)
I'm hungry... I should probably go eat something.. but I'm jut really comfy here... it's just one of those mornings where you're content and happy. and I just wanna stay here in my pink fuzzy chair... but I do need food... dang...
mmk. I'm gonna attempt to start my day. I'll post later. :)

Proof that I did indeed make pie tonight.

My silly daddy wanting to eat the pie. :)

Beautiful pie....

:) you should be very jealous...

And then here are some other fun pictures I took this weekend...

Right now... I want nothing more then to be on facebook chatting away... I think it's official.. I'm addicted. BUT I'M GONNA FIGHT THIS!!! AHHHHG. I WILL NOT GIVE IN..

week without Facebook day 1

So far so good. just now when I got on the computer I automatically started signing into facebook out of habit, but I stopped myself just in time. I feel accomplished now. hahahaha. :)
today has been a pretty good day. I just got up from a 3 hour nap... I've slept a third of my day away... woohoo.. XD I wonder why I'm so tired lately.. I went to bed at 11 last night, I was up reading. I probably would have read longer, but I decided the book would be even better if I wasn't half asleep. so I reluctantly put it down and turned out the lights. I've discovered a disadvantage to having your own room. when you share a room with your sister, your kind of forced to go to sleep at a reasonable time. when you have your own room, you are challenged with the temptation to stay up till insane hours of the morning... which is probably not healthy, and which I have done several times this week month, which is probably the reason I've been taking three hour naps every other day... hmm....
Anyway. Before I took my 3 hour nap, we had one of my Dads brothers family over for the morning. that was fun. he has 3 grown up children, and one of his children has a little girl. We don't see them very often, so it was fun to catch up. My Uncle is actually a Photographer. so I got to get some tips from him and show him some or my pictures. I was told for the first time I could actually get paid for doing Portraits... that was a new thought.. I guess I knew eventually that would be an option once I was good... but now? I guess so! he told me I should take my friends out and do some portraits of them, (which I had already been planing on doing) and then I should put together a portfolio and then I could start looking for gigs. so that was a interesting thing to think about... I'm not sure I'm confident enough to do that quite yet, but it's cool that I could if I wanted to. it's exciting. :) it's amazing what wonderful opertunitys God opens up...

I want to make an apple pie today... I think I should get off the computer and run to the store to get some apples... hmm... maybe I should start selling my baked goods too.. hehehehehe

Question... hmm... do you prefer colorful socks or just plain white socks?
I prefer colorful socks personally.. in fact, I like to wear socks that don't match.... at the moment I'm wearing one black sock, and on the other foot I have a striped purple and green sock. :D

More tomorrow. :)

Crazy, Beautiful, Wonderful, life.

hey guys.
Honestly, life has been really really hard this week... actually this month has been pretty rough. not because of events or people, well, kind of about people, but mostly just spiritually rough for me... I've had a really hard time concentrating at mass, and I'll forget to talk to God throughout the day and make Him the center of my life. but I think it's getting better now. today was the first time in a while that I've felt purely happy and could feel God right there with me. And it wasn't like anything miraculous happened. It was a pretty normal day actually. I got up and had breakfast. I cleaned my room spotless. I finished a math test and did pretty stinkin well, which is a big accomplishment, I haven't done well in math for about 2-3 months. gah. did some other school and then I went on a bike ride downtown to drop off some books at the library, and then I rode to St. Aloysius's and just sat in the church and prayed and thought. for about two hours. I just needed to clear my mind and put it all at God's feet. I wrote in my journal and prayed a rosary. I adore my faith... It makes me so happy... there is no way to describe it... it's just beautiful.. anyway. it was a absolutely gorgeous day. GORGEOUS. I wish I could have spent my whole day out there. every time I went outside I just started grinning. I wonder how many people I freaked out... probably a lot... either that or I made their day. that would be cool. :) I just wanted to throw my arms out and thank God for that beautiful day. but instead I ran around some beautifully green hills (looking like a crazy person and not caring) and rode my bike around the park and down some hills really fast. it was awesome. anyway. it just made my life better.

Lets see....
tomorrow is the day my little brother or sister would have been born if he/she hadn't been miscarried. honestly, I'm still pretty upset about the whole thing. when I think about it I still get sick and sad and angry... hopefully it wont ruin my day tomorrow. I miss that baby... a lot...

Oh, I got in another show. I'm in Spokane Children Theater's production of A Christmas Story. I'm playing the part of Helen. so far it's been a lot of fun. my character has the potential for a lot of attitude, so I'm really excited to be able to play with it and make it my own. I like our director a lot, he's quite the goof ball but knows what he's doing. so it's cool. it's gonna be a fun show. :)

Anyway. so that's what's on my mind. well, there's actually a lot more on my mind... but we'll leave it at that for now. I need to get to bed. my lovely mommy just came in and told me to go to bed. let me tell ya, it's really annoying having my parents bedroom exactly underneath mine. they can hear everything, and I mean everything, I do. it doesn't help that we have wood floors and they squeak sometimes. ahahha *SIGH* but she's right I guess. sleep is good. so over and out for now. :)
God Bless

Oh! I just thought of something. I'm gonna ask you guys a question. if your out there. which I doubt. ha. nobody's reading this. but what ever. I'm gonna ask a question anyway!

Do you have a spot where you go when you want to be alone? Comment and tell me about it!

Cc's answer: I have a few spots. one is probably my bedroom. sometimes I'll hide in my closet behind the cloths. but it gets pretty stuffy in there. hahahaaha. another place is this secret spot along the trail that's surrounded by trees. I love it. it's right along the river. I've been going there a lot to think and just be alone. But if I can't go there, I go in my front yard and sit on our swing. the only draw back to that is that there are cars going by all the time and usually there are neighbor kids in our yard. so I tend to stick with my bedroom. :)

Comment if you're there! :)

Goodnight world.