Auditions.

Well, today's the day..... auditions for Anne of Green Gables are in about two hours.... right now, I'm feeling pretty confidant, but I'm sure that'll change. I figure, if I totally bomb the audition and sing like a goat, at least the song I've chosen is funny and I can really ham it up. it'll be fun. I think.
My little sister Maleny is auditioning too. I'm going to accompany her on the guitar. that's really exciting. her song is really fun to really rock out to. the hardest part is gonna be to balance her volume with mine. but I'm not too worried. she's got a nice strong voice and I'm good at telling when I'm too loud.
so yeah. pray for both of us. :D fingers crossed!

first post of 2011

What's on my mind? WHAT'S ON MY MIND!?!?!??!! auditions... auditions.. auditions...
Auditions for Anne of Green Gables are on sunday. I haven't auditioned for a musical in a very long time.. if you don't count Oklahoma. which I don't, because I didn't actually have to prepare a song for that. I'm good if you just hand me a script or a song or what ever, I don't get very nervous at all. but when I have to prepare something, I get nervous beyond all reason... I really have no confidence in my voice... I've heard it's beautiful, and I can sing quite well... but I just can't stand hearing myself sing. I'm slightly afraid of it actually.. it's very strange. but I'm afraid of how I sound. ahhhg. I don't know... I get panic attacks every time I think about it... plus I hear there's gonna be a ton of people auditioning... lotsa girls... lotsa competition... ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
okay. NOT THINKING ABOUT THAT ANYMORE...

So, this is my first post of 2011. It's been an alright year so far. all 7 days of it. it's weird looking back on what I was doing a year a go... I was starting lifeguard training... getting a hang on that independence thing after my sisters had gone off to school. that was a pretty exciting month. I got my wisdom teeth out in February. hah. that was fun. glad I don't have to do that again. hahahahaha. a year ago from tomorrow, I found out my mother was pregnant... that was a ride... last year really was a tough one... I went through a lot of loss... especially when that baby died in march... but there was also a lot of exciting things that happened, too. it was a big theater year. I got to crew for a professional theater. I met all sorts of wonderful people there. got a bit of a sneak peak of what life is like when you do theater for a living. I also crewed for The Last Gladiator, I was in Juvie and A Christmas Story back to back. for someone who usually does 2 shows at most a year, that was a lot. and I learned SO much.
In the summer I taught swim and went to a family reunion and spent a week and a half with my wonderful out of town cousins whom I love very much. I'm hoping I can go visit them in Louisiana this summer. fingers crossed. :) I also turned 15... Got a wonderful camera, which is gonna help me along my road to hopefully becoming a photographer someday. oh yeah, and I learned that I love the guitar.
I met lots of wonderful people in 2010.... I met Rachael, who is now one of my best friends in the world, I met the Juvie gang, some of which are very close and dear to me now, and all of them I love with all my heart. some of my friendships were strained for a little bit through all the hard things that happened.... but they've grown stronger then ever now.
so I think 2010 was the "Cc learning what she loves to do, and Cc beginning to become the wonderful young lady God wants her to be, and learning who Cc needs to listen to" year. and I found out that my parents really are right... even when I think they're wrong.. they're right... and I love them. I love my whole family. and they love me. pretty cool. I think I did a fair amount of growing up, if that's okay and not egotistical to say. :)
Karen's going back to school tomorrow. we drove Clara back on sunday. it's hard to accept that winter break really is over. I don't like it. I like having all my sisters around. I miss them. it's hard knowing they don't know all my friends and they don't know all the adventures I'm going through, and I don't know all their adventures they're going through and the people met. and I don't like that. skype can only let you in on so much. and I'm usually away from home when we do skype. *sigh* so I'm not happy Karen's going home.
but, on the bright side, I'm going Ice Skating with my Juvies tomorrow. I'm very excited to see them. we're a fun group of kids. and then auditions on sunday. (AHHHHH)
And so, begins another part of Cc's life. whether or not I get into Anne. I think I'll find something else exciting and new to do if I don't. I have hope. God always has something in mind. even if it's not what I have in mind. that's another thing I learned last year. gah. God is GOOD.

I think that's all for now. I gotta go to bed. I'm gonna get up at 5:00 to drive Karen to the Airport. Meh.
I hope you all had a fabulous 2010, and I hope 2011 is even better. I love you! <3

December

Last month of the year. it sure is going by fast... it's already week two. I don't know if I'm ready for this year to end... it's a really weird feeling.. it's like there's a blanket being pulled out from under me. I'm not ready to let go. ya know? you don't, do you... I thought so... yeah... hmm.. oh well.
The show closes today. I have to start getting my stage makeup on in a bit. I'm not too bummed that it's over... I've had a wonderful time, and I've learned a lot and it's been great. but I'm ready to be done. I feel kinda mean for saying that, but I can't help but feel a little relieved that it's over. in 4 weeks I'll be auditioning for Anne of Green Gables at TAC. you have no idea how excited I am... My best friends dad is directing, and he's just such a great guy and I hear he's one of the best directors out there. it'll be fun. even if I don't get in, I'm excited to audition. it's been awhile since I've auditioned for a musical. and I'm excited to see how the show turns out. it's gonna be a ball of fun. and I love TAC with all my heart. so it's just happy all the way around! :)

life is pretty good right now. My sister Clara came home on friday for christmas break. she's been home now and then for thanksgiving break and small visits like that. but we haven't really been able to hang out and be sisters for awhile. so I'm very happy to have her home. Karen comes home next week. the whole family will be together. It'll be wonderful. I love Christmas. a lot.
one of my best friends came home from the Bahama's on Thursday. I got to hang out with her on friday. we walked to manito park and I took some pictures of her. not as many as I would have liked, but das okay. we had a good time. I've missed her so much... she's been gone for 3 months! there was a lot to catch up on. :)
lemmme seeee.... I think that's all for now. I'm happy. life is good. for the most part. :) I'll try to post again later this week. oh, and happy Gaudete Sunday!!! one more week till christmas!!!! :D

winter and snow and everything good.

Hey you guuuys. sorry it's been forever and a day since I've updated. but what evah. it's been crazy.
so. last week was thanksgiving week as well as dress rehearsal week for my show. it was... intense. dress rehearsals were pretty scary. we starting running the show all the way though two days before we opened. everyone was super nervous and I don't think anyone thought we would be able to pull it off. but we did, and we opened with a bang. I think one of the most exciting thing for me was wearing a mic for the first time. it's not a big deal for most people, but for me it was like the forth of July.... the first day we wore it, I was seriously terrified... the thing is worth 400 bucks, and I wear it on my face. when I held it for the first time, I pretty much thought it was gonna blow up in my hand. it didn't, thank goodness, but it was scary. I feel super snazzy wearing it now... I think I should wear a mic all the time... and then, I could break out into song in the middle of the street, and people would dance with me! right? ... yeah maybe that's not such a good idea. ;) so yeah. that was a highlight. and then there was thanksgiving... that was super fun. Clara came home for the weekend. it was nice to have her around again. I miss her. we had Thanksgiving at my Aunt Perky's house. it was very nice and relaxing. it was a small gathering, but it was pretty much perfect. it was snowing a lot too, which made it super lovely, AND there were turkey's roaming about her yard, too. go figure. :)






So yeah. Winter is finally here. lotsa new photo ops. and that's super exciting to me.
But honestly, this month has been so long, and so hard... God's really working up a storm in my life, and it's really been changing me and changing my family. But as hard as it is, I can't help but be joyful and THANKFUL. I am learning and growing so much... and I'm so thankful for the family I have... they have been so loving and patient with me, and I don't deserve it. I've messed up and tripped several times this year. but no matter what they love me and are rejoicing with me while watching me learn from my stupid mess ups. so big shout out to my family who are all wonderful.
<---- so that was my cheesy bit of lovely right there. but seriously. GOD IS GOOD. ALL THE TIME. that right there is a fact. no matter what. :)
what else is on mah mind... THERE'S A BUNCH OF SNOWY HAPPINESS EVERYWHERE!!! YAAAAAAAAYYY!!!! Cc is super duper pleased. Except that they haven't shut down school yet. which makes her sad because then her friends can't come over and make cookies and have snowball fights. so that's a bummer. but that doesn't stop her from clobbering her siblings with snowballs... I love how I just start talking in the third person randomly... it's ridiculous. anywho. this week is looking to be pretty awesome. tomorrow I'm going contra dancing. Thursday I'm going to see white Christmas, Friday I'm going to see little mermaid, and then Saturday and Sunday I have two shows of my own. so I be a busy woman.
anyway. that's what's on my mind. I'll try to write more soon. we'll see what I can do. :)
so over and out! hope you all a had a wonderful thanksgiving. :)
oh, and that picture of the roses, yeah. those were from my show. I got 12 roses from a good friend of mine, and one rose from my secret pal. I've never gotten roses before, so that was supah awesome and amazing. and it made me happy. so there's a picture. hehehe. :)

Fall pictures.

Little moments.

I have a little funny story...
so, dad comes up behind me while I'm talking to clara, and he's bouncing on his heals like he does sometimes and rubbing my shoulders and he whispers in my ear "can I raid your bag?" Referring to my lovely pillowcase full of sweet delights. and I say go ahead. and he says "anything off limits?" and I say no... thinking there isn't anything I would be heart broken to part with. so he bounds off into my room and I hear him searching my bag. then I hear a "ooooooooo!!" come from my room... so I go in to investigate what prize he has found... I walk in, he has his back turned to me and I hear this "crunch crunch crunch" and as I come closer, I find that he has captured my king sized butterfinger bar, and is eating the entire thing with a look of glee on his face. he grins at me and walks out of the room.
now, I'm totally fine with that. I just thought it was pretty funny that he picked the biggest thing he could find. I love mah daddy. he's the best ever. :)

Halloween weekend. :)

first off, I'd really like it if I could stop napping please. yesterday I pretty much slept all morning. I got up, went to mass, came home, went back to sleep, got up and had breakfast, went back to sleep, got up went to the bathroom, went back to sleep, and this went on till about 2:30 in the afternoon. now, I had had a big night the night before and was up till about 2:30 in the morning cause I was celebrating my friend Quinns birthday at Scarywood, so that was legit sleeping. But today, I definitely did not need the 3 hour nap I got. I had a pretty normal day, I got up and did my school and all. and then at about... 1:30ish I went to sleep and didn't wake up till about 15 minutes ago. I feel like I wasted the better part of my day. plus I have a headache from sleeping wrong, and I have to be at rehearsal in an hour. lovely.
But anyway. so as I said, Saturday I had the great pleasure of attending Quinns birthday/Juvie cast get-together at Scarywood. I have not had so much fun and laughed so hard in the longest time... sure, it was cold, it was raining, there were people with guns and scary bloody masks, evil clowns chasing us around, It was loud and there were people screaming everywhere (that usually bothers me), But I had my wonderful friends with me and a hand to hold, and I had THE time of my life. It was just so happy... I seriously can't stop thinking about it, words could not possibly describe how fun it was. I love my Juvies... I love theater kids... ahh.
then sunday I pertty much slept all day. I was zonked man. and then in the afternoon I decided I did actually want to go Trick or Treating with my cousins. they were having a zombie themed party, and I don't usually go as anything scary, but I felt like I'd be a weirdo if I went to a zombie party in a princess dress or something like I was thinking about doing... so I threw on my Dina outfit and makeup, added some fake blood all over the place, and it served me well. so off I went to trick or treat with a rowdy group of 8 teenagers to go ask for free candy door to door. I haven't been trick or treating in about 3 years so it seemed a little strange to me. but it turned out to be super fun. I love mah cousins super duper muchly. hahahaha :) and now, I have a 5 pound bag of candy. does anyone else like the smell of Halloween candy? I don't know what it is, but it has this nice smell... all the candy's mixed together.. it's got a special smell. I like to stick my head in the candy bag and just in-hail.... I'm pretty sure I'm a freak. :D
okay. I have to get to rehearsal now. I'm sorry for not writing in a freakishly long time... it's been a long week. :P
over and out!