winter and snow and everything good.

Hey you guuuys. sorry it's been forever and a day since I've updated. but what evah. it's been crazy.
so. last week was thanksgiving week as well as dress rehearsal week for my show. it was... intense. dress rehearsals were pretty scary. we starting running the show all the way though two days before we opened. everyone was super nervous and I don't think anyone thought we would be able to pull it off. but we did, and we opened with a bang. I think one of the most exciting thing for me was wearing a mic for the first time. it's not a big deal for most people, but for me it was like the forth of July.... the first day we wore it, I was seriously terrified... the thing is worth 400 bucks, and I wear it on my face. when I held it for the first time, I pretty much thought it was gonna blow up in my hand. it didn't, thank goodness, but it was scary. I feel super snazzy wearing it now... I think I should wear a mic all the time... and then, I could break out into song in the middle of the street, and people would dance with me! right? ... yeah maybe that's not such a good idea. ;) so yeah. that was a highlight. and then there was thanksgiving... that was super fun. Clara came home for the weekend. it was nice to have her around again. I miss her. we had Thanksgiving at my Aunt Perky's house. it was very nice and relaxing. it was a small gathering, but it was pretty much perfect. it was snowing a lot too, which made it super lovely, AND there were turkey's roaming about her yard, too. go figure. :)






So yeah. Winter is finally here. lotsa new photo ops. and that's super exciting to me.
But honestly, this month has been so long, and so hard... God's really working up a storm in my life, and it's really been changing me and changing my family. But as hard as it is, I can't help but be joyful and THANKFUL. I am learning and growing so much... and I'm so thankful for the family I have... they have been so loving and patient with me, and I don't deserve it. I've messed up and tripped several times this year. but no matter what they love me and are rejoicing with me while watching me learn from my stupid mess ups. so big shout out to my family who are all wonderful.
<---- so that was my cheesy bit of lovely right there. but seriously. GOD IS GOOD. ALL THE TIME. that right there is a fact. no matter what. :)
what else is on mah mind... THERE'S A BUNCH OF SNOWY HAPPINESS EVERYWHERE!!! YAAAAAAAAYYY!!!! Cc is super duper pleased. Except that they haven't shut down school yet. which makes her sad because then her friends can't come over and make cookies and have snowball fights. so that's a bummer. but that doesn't stop her from clobbering her siblings with snowballs... I love how I just start talking in the third person randomly... it's ridiculous. anywho. this week is looking to be pretty awesome. tomorrow I'm going contra dancing. Thursday I'm going to see white Christmas, Friday I'm going to see little mermaid, and then Saturday and Sunday I have two shows of my own. so I be a busy woman.
anyway. that's what's on my mind. I'll try to write more soon. we'll see what I can do. :)
so over and out! hope you all a had a wonderful thanksgiving. :)
oh, and that picture of the roses, yeah. those were from my show. I got 12 roses from a good friend of mine, and one rose from my secret pal. I've never gotten roses before, so that was supah awesome and amazing. and it made me happy. so there's a picture. hehehe. :)

Fall pictures.

Little moments.

I have a little funny story...
so, dad comes up behind me while I'm talking to clara, and he's bouncing on his heals like he does sometimes and rubbing my shoulders and he whispers in my ear "can I raid your bag?" Referring to my lovely pillowcase full of sweet delights. and I say go ahead. and he says "anything off limits?" and I say no... thinking there isn't anything I would be heart broken to part with. so he bounds off into my room and I hear him searching my bag. then I hear a "ooooooooo!!" come from my room... so I go in to investigate what prize he has found... I walk in, he has his back turned to me and I hear this "crunch crunch crunch" and as I come closer, I find that he has captured my king sized butterfinger bar, and is eating the entire thing with a look of glee on his face. he grins at me and walks out of the room.
now, I'm totally fine with that. I just thought it was pretty funny that he picked the biggest thing he could find. I love mah daddy. he's the best ever. :)

Halloween weekend. :)

first off, I'd really like it if I could stop napping please. yesterday I pretty much slept all morning. I got up, went to mass, came home, went back to sleep, got up and had breakfast, went back to sleep, got up went to the bathroom, went back to sleep, and this went on till about 2:30 in the afternoon. now, I had had a big night the night before and was up till about 2:30 in the morning cause I was celebrating my friend Quinns birthday at Scarywood, so that was legit sleeping. But today, I definitely did not need the 3 hour nap I got. I had a pretty normal day, I got up and did my school and all. and then at about... 1:30ish I went to sleep and didn't wake up till about 15 minutes ago. I feel like I wasted the better part of my day. plus I have a headache from sleeping wrong, and I have to be at rehearsal in an hour. lovely.
But anyway. so as I said, Saturday I had the great pleasure of attending Quinns birthday/Juvie cast get-together at Scarywood. I have not had so much fun and laughed so hard in the longest time... sure, it was cold, it was raining, there were people with guns and scary bloody masks, evil clowns chasing us around, It was loud and there were people screaming everywhere (that usually bothers me), But I had my wonderful friends with me and a hand to hold, and I had THE time of my life. It was just so happy... I seriously can't stop thinking about it, words could not possibly describe how fun it was. I love my Juvies... I love theater kids... ahh.
then sunday I pertty much slept all day. I was zonked man. and then in the afternoon I decided I did actually want to go Trick or Treating with my cousins. they were having a zombie themed party, and I don't usually go as anything scary, but I felt like I'd be a weirdo if I went to a zombie party in a princess dress or something like I was thinking about doing... so I threw on my Dina outfit and makeup, added some fake blood all over the place, and it served me well. so off I went to trick or treat with a rowdy group of 8 teenagers to go ask for free candy door to door. I haven't been trick or treating in about 3 years so it seemed a little strange to me. but it turned out to be super fun. I love mah cousins super duper muchly. hahahaha :) and now, I have a 5 pound bag of candy. does anyone else like the smell of Halloween candy? I don't know what it is, but it has this nice smell... all the candy's mixed together.. it's got a special smell. I like to stick my head in the candy bag and just in-hail.... I'm pretty sure I'm a freak. :D
okay. I have to get to rehearsal now. I'm sorry for not writing in a freakishly long time... it's been a long week. :P
over and out!

26 years and still strong.

It's my parents 26th anniversary today. Father Tom said a mass just for us and renewed my parents wedding vows. it was nice. I love my parents. they're my favorite ever. :)

other then that today wasn't so special.. I spent most of the day babysitting my little siblings while my parents were on a date. and then I went off to swim.and now I'm at home feeling very sleepy. apparently we're gonna watch "How to Train Your Dragon" in a little bit. I like that movie.
ahhhhhhhhhhhg. I don't know. I'm not in a very happy mood. and usually when I'm like this I get on facebook and talk to my friends and it makes me happy. but because I'm off facebook I'm gonna have to find another way to get out of this angst. *SIGH* maybe I should go journal or something.. I don't know. I miss my sisters... I haven't talked to Karen or Clara in a long time. I want them home. skype isn't enough for me... I just have a really hard talking to people over skype. hmmm. *SIGH* AHHHHGDSAEWIds kqa;eojafsdmcAPWQOIRKADi
mmmk. I think Ice Cream will make things better.... bed would be good too. :P
over and out for today.

Quote.

"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our Light, not our Darkness, that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you NOT to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightening about shrinking so that other people won't feel unsure around you. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It is not just in some of us; it is in everyone. As we let our own Light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others" Marianne Williamson.

Sick Tuesday.

phoooooooaaaaa. Why am I so TIRED!?!? Ahhhhhhhg! I had THE most WONDERFUL sleep last night. I went to bed at 10:00, and got up at around 8:00 without waking up inbetween, so why on earth do I feel like I could pass out on spot? it's not faaaaaaair. *SIGH* there's a cold going around my house. I had it a little bit last week, and then my mom came down with it hard and now my brother has it. I guess I'm coming down with cold round two. I rode my bike to the library this morning to pick some stuff up, and it totally wiped me out. I just brought some laundry up the stairs, and half way up I felt like I couldn't pull myself up another step and I was gonna fall backwards. that didn't happen, but it's just like, come on! really now? really? *sigh* I hate being sick. it slows down my productivity. I don't like that. I like being productive. I like being super woman. *SIGH*

Yesterday was really hard for some reason. swim was hard. I don't know why. I just wanted to get out of there as soon as possible. and then rehearsal seemed to last foreeeeverrrr.. it was fun at times, but it kinda made me wanna curl up and die. oh well though. that's show biz. :P

random fact, my toenails are pink today. pink with a silver line down the middle. yup.

Random fact number two. JESUS LOVES YOU. just sayin.

SCARY FACT! my little sister, as of yesterday, is taking Kung Fu. I kid you not. I'M GONNA BE SISTER OF THE KUNG FU PANDA! now, this scares me a little bit, but at the same time I'm excited for her. it's gonna be an interesting experience.

Sad fact.... I think my bunny died today. No, it's not because I was negligent, it was because he was an old bunny. poor bunny. hope he's happy in bunny heaven.... now, I'm not positively sure he's dead... I think he is cause he's just laying in his cage with his eyes open, and he doesn't look like he's breathing. so I think he's dead.. hmm...

okay. I'm gonna do something productive now. or I'm gonna try... :P