It's excatly 8:04 right now. my friends are probably at school. I'm here in my pink fuzzy robe and my pink fuzzy slippers sitting in my pink fuzzy chair. The radio is on and currently playing Teenage Dream by Katy Perry. I hate that song... "over played" is a understatement to say the least. I think I'll turn off the radio now...
My dad started the wood stove today. the first fire of the year is always my favorite. the smell brings back memories. it's probably not a really pleasant smell to most people.. it kind of smells like burning hair a little bit... but it's special to me if that makes any sense. and then there's the smell of your cloths burning when you stand too close to the fire when trying to get warm. I like that smell too... hahahaha I don't know. it's just a comforting smell to me. It's the sign that Fall is defiantly here and Winter is coming. I'm hoping we have a really snowy winter like we had in 2008. that was probably my favorite winter ever. :)
I'm hungry... I should probably go eat something.. but I'm jut really comfy here... it's just one of those mornings where you're content and happy. and I just wanna stay here in my pink fuzzy chair... but I do need food... dang...
mmk. I'm gonna attempt to start my day. I'll post later. :)
Monday, October 18, 2010
Sunday, October 17, 2010
Proof that I did indeed make pie tonight.
My silly daddy wanting to eat the pie. :)
Beautiful pie....
:) you should be very jealous...
And then here are some other fun pictures I took this weekend...
Right now... I want nothing more then to be on facebook chatting away... I think it's official.. I'm addicted. BUT I'M GONNA FIGHT THIS!!! AHHHHG. I WILL NOT GIVE IN..
week without Facebook day 1
So far so good. just now when I got on the computer I automatically started signing into facebook out of habit, but I stopped myself just in time. I feel accomplished now. hahahaha. :)
today has been a pretty good day. I just got up from a 3 hour nap... I've slept a third of my day away... woohoo.. XD I wonder why I'm so tired lately.. I went to bed at 11 last night, I was up reading. I probably would have read longer, but I decided the book would be even better if I wasn't half asleep. so I reluctantly put it down and turned out the lights. I've discovered a disadvantage to having your own room. when you share a room with your sister, your kind of forced to go to sleep at a reasonable time. when you have your own room, you are challenged with the temptation to stay up till insane hours of the morning... which is probably not healthy, and which I have done several times this week month, which is probably the reason I've been taking three hour naps every other day... hmm....
Anyway. Before I took my 3 hour nap, we had one of my Dads brothers family over for the morning. that was fun. he has 3 grown up children, and one of his children has a little girl. We don't see them very often, so it was fun to catch up. My Uncle is actually a Photographer. so I got to get some tips from him and show him some or my pictures. I was told for the first time I could actually get paid for doing Portraits... that was a new thought.. I guess I knew eventually that would be an option once I was good... but now? I guess so! he told me I should take my friends out and do some portraits of them, (which I had already been planing on doing) and then I should put together a portfolio and then I could start looking for gigs. so that was a interesting thing to think about... I'm not sure I'm confident enough to do that quite yet, but it's cool that I could if I wanted to. it's exciting. :) it's amazing what wonderful opertunitys God opens up...
I want to make an apple pie today... I think I should get off the computer and run to the store to get some apples... hmm... maybe I should start selling my baked goods too.. hehehehehe
Question... hmm... do you prefer colorful socks or just plain white socks?
I prefer colorful socks personally.. in fact, I like to wear socks that don't match.... at the moment I'm wearing one black sock, and on the other foot I have a striped purple and green sock. :D
More tomorrow. :)
today has been a pretty good day. I just got up from a 3 hour nap... I've slept a third of my day away... woohoo.. XD I wonder why I'm so tired lately.. I went to bed at 11 last night, I was up reading. I probably would have read longer, but I decided the book would be even better if I wasn't half asleep. so I reluctantly put it down and turned out the lights. I've discovered a disadvantage to having your own room. when you share a room with your sister, your kind of forced to go to sleep at a reasonable time. when you have your own room, you are challenged with the temptation to stay up till insane hours of the morning... which is probably not healthy, and which I have done several times this week month, which is probably the reason I've been taking three hour naps every other day... hmm....
Anyway. Before I took my 3 hour nap, we had one of my Dads brothers family over for the morning. that was fun. he has 3 grown up children, and one of his children has a little girl. We don't see them very often, so it was fun to catch up. My Uncle is actually a Photographer. so I got to get some tips from him and show him some or my pictures. I was told for the first time I could actually get paid for doing Portraits... that was a new thought.. I guess I knew eventually that would be an option once I was good... but now? I guess so! he told me I should take my friends out and do some portraits of them, (which I had already been planing on doing) and then I should put together a portfolio and then I could start looking for gigs. so that was a interesting thing to think about... I'm not sure I'm confident enough to do that quite yet, but it's cool that I could if I wanted to. it's exciting. :) it's amazing what wonderful opertunitys God opens up...
I want to make an apple pie today... I think I should get off the computer and run to the store to get some apples... hmm... maybe I should start selling my baked goods too.. hehehehehe
Question... hmm... do you prefer colorful socks or just plain white socks?
I prefer colorful socks personally.. in fact, I like to wear socks that don't match.... at the moment I'm wearing one black sock, and on the other foot I have a striped purple and green sock. :D
More tomorrow. :)
Friday, October 15, 2010
Crazy, Beautiful, Wonderful, life.
hey guys.
Honestly, life has been really really hard this week... actually this month has been pretty rough. not because of events or people, well, kind of about people, but mostly just spiritually rough for me... I've had a really hard time concentrating at mass, and I'll forget to talk to God throughout the day and make Him the center of my life. but I think it's getting better now. today was the first time in a while that I've felt purely happy and could feel God right there with me. And it wasn't like anything miraculous happened. It was a pretty normal day actually. I got up and had breakfast. I cleaned my room spotless. I finished a math test and did pretty stinkin well, which is a big accomplishment, I haven't done well in math for about 2-3 months. gah. did some other school and then I went on a bike ride downtown to drop off some books at the library, and then I rode to St. Aloysius's and just sat in the church and prayed and thought. for about two hours. I just needed to clear my mind and put it all at God's feet. I wrote in my journal and prayed a rosary. I adore my faith... It makes me so happy... there is no way to describe it... it's just beautiful.. anyway. it was a absolutely gorgeous day. GORGEOUS. I wish I could have spent my whole day out there. every time I went outside I just started grinning. I wonder how many people I freaked out... probably a lot... either that or I made their day. that would be cool. :) I just wanted to throw my arms out and thank God for that beautiful day. but instead I ran around some beautifully green hills (looking like a crazy person and not caring) and rode my bike around the park and down some hills really fast. it was awesome. anyway. it just made my life better.
Lets see....
tomorrow is the day my little brother or sister would have been born if he/she hadn't been miscarried. honestly, I'm still pretty upset about the whole thing. when I think about it I still get sick and sad and angry... hopefully it wont ruin my day tomorrow. I miss that baby... a lot...
Oh, I got in another show. I'm in Spokane Children Theater's production of A Christmas Story. I'm playing the part of Helen. so far it's been a lot of fun. my character has the potential for a lot of attitude, so I'm really excited to be able to play with it and make it my own. I like our director a lot, he's quite the goof ball but knows what he's doing. so it's cool. it's gonna be a fun show. :)
Anyway. so that's what's on my mind. well, there's actually a lot more on my mind... but we'll leave it at that for now. I need to get to bed. my lovely mommy just came in and told me to go to bed. let me tell ya, it's really annoying having my parents bedroom exactly underneath mine. they can hear everything, and I mean everything, I do. it doesn't help that we have wood floors and they squeak sometimes. ahahha *SIGH* but she's right I guess. sleep is good. so over and out for now. :)
God Bless
Oh! I just thought of something. I'm gonna ask you guys a question. if your out there. which I doubt. ha. nobody's reading this. but what ever. I'm gonna ask a question anyway!
Do you have a spot where you go when you want to be alone? Comment and tell me about it!
Cc's answer: I have a few spots. one is probably my bedroom. sometimes I'll hide in my closet behind the cloths. but it gets pretty stuffy in there. hahahaaha. another place is this secret spot along the trail that's surrounded by trees. I love it. it's right along the river. I've been going there a lot to think and just be alone. But if I can't go there, I go in my front yard and sit on our swing. the only draw back to that is that there are cars going by all the time and usually there are neighbor kids in our yard. so I tend to stick with my bedroom. :)
Comment if you're there! :)
Goodnight world.
Honestly, life has been really really hard this week... actually this month has been pretty rough. not because of events or people, well, kind of about people, but mostly just spiritually rough for me... I've had a really hard time concentrating at mass, and I'll forget to talk to God throughout the day and make Him the center of my life. but I think it's getting better now. today was the first time in a while that I've felt purely happy and could feel God right there with me. And it wasn't like anything miraculous happened. It was a pretty normal day actually. I got up and had breakfast. I cleaned my room spotless. I finished a math test and did pretty stinkin well, which is a big accomplishment, I haven't done well in math for about 2-3 months. gah. did some other school and then I went on a bike ride downtown to drop off some books at the library, and then I rode to St. Aloysius's and just sat in the church and prayed and thought. for about two hours. I just needed to clear my mind and put it all at God's feet. I wrote in my journal and prayed a rosary. I adore my faith... It makes me so happy... there is no way to describe it... it's just beautiful.. anyway. it was a absolutely gorgeous day. GORGEOUS. I wish I could have spent my whole day out there. every time I went outside I just started grinning. I wonder how many people I freaked out... probably a lot... either that or I made their day. that would be cool. :) I just wanted to throw my arms out and thank God for that beautiful day. but instead I ran around some beautifully green hills (looking like a crazy person and not caring) and rode my bike around the park and down some hills really fast. it was awesome. anyway. it just made my life better.
Lets see....
tomorrow is the day my little brother or sister would have been born if he/she hadn't been miscarried. honestly, I'm still pretty upset about the whole thing. when I think about it I still get sick and sad and angry... hopefully it wont ruin my day tomorrow. I miss that baby... a lot...
Oh, I got in another show. I'm in Spokane Children Theater's production of A Christmas Story. I'm playing the part of Helen. so far it's been a lot of fun. my character has the potential for a lot of attitude, so I'm really excited to be able to play with it and make it my own. I like our director a lot, he's quite the goof ball but knows what he's doing. so it's cool. it's gonna be a fun show. :)
Anyway. so that's what's on my mind. well, there's actually a lot more on my mind... but we'll leave it at that for now. I need to get to bed. my lovely mommy just came in and told me to go to bed. let me tell ya, it's really annoying having my parents bedroom exactly underneath mine. they can hear everything, and I mean everything, I do. it doesn't help that we have wood floors and they squeak sometimes. ahahha *SIGH* but she's right I guess. sleep is good. so over and out for now. :)
God Bless
Oh! I just thought of something. I'm gonna ask you guys a question. if your out there. which I doubt. ha. nobody's reading this. but what ever. I'm gonna ask a question anyway!
Do you have a spot where you go when you want to be alone? Comment and tell me about it!
Cc's answer: I have a few spots. one is probably my bedroom. sometimes I'll hide in my closet behind the cloths. but it gets pretty stuffy in there. hahahaaha. another place is this secret spot along the trail that's surrounded by trees. I love it. it's right along the river. I've been going there a lot to think and just be alone. But if I can't go there, I go in my front yard and sit on our swing. the only draw back to that is that there are cars going by all the time and usually there are neighbor kids in our yard. so I tend to stick with my bedroom. :)
Comment if you're there! :)
Goodnight world.
Friday, September 24, 2010
what now?
Well, the show closed on Sunday. we only ran for four days, but hopefully we're going to start touring middle schools next month and throughout the year, so it wont officially end for awhile. which is pretty cool.
Life's going back to normal. I'm catching up on my school again which was horribly neglected over the summer.... yikes... It's nice to get my brain moving again. :P I'm pretty relaxed right now. I am glad I don't have to turn in to a monster every night anymore, though I really miss seeing my friends. this week really has been the post show de-punking. remembering how to be Cc again. I've just been taking it easy and getting my sleep back. I took a lot of walks and bike rides so I could talk to God. I found a nice little hidden spot along the river this morning where I can just sit and think. it's very nice.
To keep my theater mind going, yesterday I went to the library and got out a bunch of books full of monologues, so I could pick a few I liked and work on them and maybe memories them so I can pull one out at anytime. it's always good to have a monologue in your back pocket. I'm not planing on auditioning for another show till January, so that'll keep me busy in the meantime.
quick side note, I adore the guitar... I started learning at the beginning of this year. I totally fell in love with it... I don't have a teacher or anything, I'm learning intirely on my own, but I'm just having a blast with it. My dad plays guitar too, so sometimes he'll get out his guitar and we'll have a little jam session. I've never had something in common with my dad like that, so that's really exciting for me to share that love with him.
okay. that's all. I just thought I'd post just to get into the habit of posting regularly. :)
God Bless,
Ceci
Life's going back to normal. I'm catching up on my school again which was horribly neglected over the summer.... yikes... It's nice to get my brain moving again. :P I'm pretty relaxed right now. I am glad I don't have to turn in to a monster every night anymore, though I really miss seeing my friends. this week really has been the post show de-punking. remembering how to be Cc again. I've just been taking it easy and getting my sleep back. I took a lot of walks and bike rides so I could talk to God. I found a nice little hidden spot along the river this morning where I can just sit and think. it's very nice.
To keep my theater mind going, yesterday I went to the library and got out a bunch of books full of monologues, so I could pick a few I liked and work on them and maybe memories them so I can pull one out at anytime. it's always good to have a monologue in your back pocket. I'm not planing on auditioning for another show till January, so that'll keep me busy in the meantime.
quick side note, I adore the guitar... I started learning at the beginning of this year. I totally fell in love with it... I don't have a teacher or anything, I'm learning intirely on my own, but I'm just having a blast with it. My dad plays guitar too, so sometimes he'll get out his guitar and we'll have a little jam session. I've never had something in common with my dad like that, so that's really exciting for me to share that love with him.
okay. that's all. I just thought I'd post just to get into the habit of posting regularly. :)
God Bless,
Ceci
Tuesday, September 14, 2010
What's going on in Ceci's head.
Hi.
I never know how to start these things... it seems kinda awkward right now because I haven't written here in... what, 7 months? more? I have no clue where to start. am I supposed to tell you about everything that's happened in the last 6 months? that would be a long post. I don't know. Well, this blog is titled "what goes on in Cc's head" so I guess I'll start with what's going on in my head...
hmmmm... Fall's coming. it's a pretty nice day outside. all my friends are back to school. one of my friends is even going to school in the Bahama's for 3 months. I'm pretty jealous. my sister Clara started her new life in Central Washington on Sunday, my other sister Karen continued her adventure in Michigan back in august, and my oldest sister Dana just started a new full time job. and here I am. a homeschooled sophomore in highschool. this is the point where I'm thinking "what about me God? isn't there something new and exciting you have for me?" I suppose that's a silly thing to think. I am actually going through a new and exciting experience right now involving theater.
I'm in a show titled "Juvie" at Theater Arts for Children. it's an ensemble piece set in juvie, and during the show you hear the story's of these kids and how they got there. I play the part of a gang leader who murders another girl during a gang fight. it's intense... I'm learning so much and it's really been the most amazing project I've ever been apart of. There's 13 of us. we range from the ages of 13 to 17. Just seeing all of us change and grow as actors has been incredible. our director has taught us how to become our character, and really learn what someone in that situation would be feeling and thinking. during one rehearsal we all sat down and wrote character bios so we could entirely know where we'd been, what we were feeling, and what was going to become of us. I've never been so understanding of my own character before... it's weird... it's not exactly pleasant to be inside of a murderers head, but just being someone else and exploring someone elses head for 4 weeks is really an incredible concept. once we step on to that stage, we're no longer ourselves. we ARE that character. I don't see my dear friend Nikki up there, I see June, who ran away from the fight and who's too much of a cowered to stand up and fight, and I hate her guts. I have never felt what I've learned to feel in these few weeks... I've never wanted to feel like that... but I'm so excited to be feeling it now. not because I like feeling pure hate, but because I know that I'm growing as an actress. I'm progressing and learning. and that is so exciting for me. to know I'm getting somewhere! closer to what I wanna become. that's the other thing. I realized during this show that, this is what I want to do. this is what I want to go to college for. I want to be an actress. now, I know that's not the only thing I want to do, but I definitely want to do this for the rest of my life. I'd love to major in theater. along side something smart and helpful to get a job of course. I'll probably end up double majoring. But I guess we'll cross that bridge when we come to it.
So, I guess the question I have for God is not "What about me", the question is "whats next for me?" whats gonna happen when this show is over? Which is a pretty retarded question to ask. it's like asking for one desert after another. what kind of ice cream am I gonna get tomorrow? I don't know. I guess I just have to live for the now and enjoy it, instead of constantly thinking about what happens next. That will probably make me a lot happier.
well, I guess that's what's going on in my head. I've decided I really need to write in this more often. Blogging is so much better then writing status' on facebook... hahaha I'll post some pictures soon. I've been doing a lot of photography lately. I got a fancy new camera for my 15th birthday. yes, I'm 15 years old now. how cool is that? honestly, it doesn't feel any different then 14. but that's okay with me. :)
mmmk, over and out for now, God bless. I gotta get ready for another rehearsal. :)
~Ceci
I never know how to start these things... it seems kinda awkward right now because I haven't written here in... what, 7 months? more? I have no clue where to start. am I supposed to tell you about everything that's happened in the last 6 months? that would be a long post. I don't know. Well, this blog is titled "what goes on in Cc's head" so I guess I'll start with what's going on in my head...
hmmmm... Fall's coming. it's a pretty nice day outside. all my friends are back to school. one of my friends is even going to school in the Bahama's for 3 months. I'm pretty jealous. my sister Clara started her new life in Central Washington on Sunday, my other sister Karen continued her adventure in Michigan back in august, and my oldest sister Dana just started a new full time job. and here I am. a homeschooled sophomore in highschool. this is the point where I'm thinking "what about me God? isn't there something new and exciting you have for me?" I suppose that's a silly thing to think. I am actually going through a new and exciting experience right now involving theater.
I'm in a show titled "Juvie" at Theater Arts for Children. it's an ensemble piece set in juvie, and during the show you hear the story's of these kids and how they got there. I play the part of a gang leader who murders another girl during a gang fight. it's intense... I'm learning so much and it's really been the most amazing project I've ever been apart of. There's 13 of us. we range from the ages of 13 to 17. Just seeing all of us change and grow as actors has been incredible. our director has taught us how to become our character, and really learn what someone in that situation would be feeling and thinking. during one rehearsal we all sat down and wrote character bios so we could entirely know where we'd been, what we were feeling, and what was going to become of us. I've never been so understanding of my own character before... it's weird... it's not exactly pleasant to be inside of a murderers head, but just being someone else and exploring someone elses head for 4 weeks is really an incredible concept. once we step on to that stage, we're no longer ourselves. we ARE that character. I don't see my dear friend Nikki up there, I see June, who ran away from the fight and who's too much of a cowered to stand up and fight, and I hate her guts. I have never felt what I've learned to feel in these few weeks... I've never wanted to feel like that... but I'm so excited to be feeling it now. not because I like feeling pure hate, but because I know that I'm growing as an actress. I'm progressing and learning. and that is so exciting for me. to know I'm getting somewhere! closer to what I wanna become. that's the other thing. I realized during this show that, this is what I want to do. this is what I want to go to college for. I want to be an actress. now, I know that's not the only thing I want to do, but I definitely want to do this for the rest of my life. I'd love to major in theater. along side something smart and helpful to get a job of course. I'll probably end up double majoring. But I guess we'll cross that bridge when we come to it.
So, I guess the question I have for God is not "What about me", the question is "whats next for me?" whats gonna happen when this show is over? Which is a pretty retarded question to ask. it's like asking for one desert after another. what kind of ice cream am I gonna get tomorrow? I don't know. I guess I just have to live for the now and enjoy it, instead of constantly thinking about what happens next. That will probably make me a lot happier.
well, I guess that's what's going on in my head. I've decided I really need to write in this more often. Blogging is so much better then writing status' on facebook... hahaha I'll post some pictures soon. I've been doing a lot of photography lately. I got a fancy new camera for my 15th birthday. yes, I'm 15 years old now. how cool is that? honestly, it doesn't feel any different then 14. but that's okay with me. :)
mmmk, over and out for now, God bless. I gotta get ready for another rehearsal. :)
~Ceci
Tuesday, March 2, 2010
The mind of a Cc on pain killers.
*insert lots of thoughtful wisdom silliness*
ooooor not!! haahahaha!
life is pretty funny. we've been getting a few smacks in the face which are turning out to be kisses from God. ....... hmmm... not sure if that made any sense.. OH WELL! :D
I'm in paaaaain. I got my wisdom teeth out on friday. Joy. It's been pretty rough.. Friday and Saturday were probably the worst days. yesterday was weird because I felt like I could live again, so I tried living, and then I ended up getting really sick towards the end of the day. not good. today I'm trying to take it easy. I hate taking it easy. it sounds so easy and fun, but try doing it when you want to be out and about. *sigh* I don't liiiike it. blah.
have I ever mentioned I love babies? I love them. I LOVE THEM. I freak out when ever I see one anywhere. I'm all "BABBYYYYYY LOOK LOOK IT'S A BABY!!! AHHH!!" and my friends are all "yes Cc, we see the baby, caaaalm down..." I love my friends. they're the best ever. XD I got a baby sitting job for the first time last Saturday. My job was to put these two little girls to bed. no big deal. but I was thrilled. the girls were sooooo sweet and cute and the loved me. I was floating for the next few days. :D
OK, Auditions are coming up in a few weeks. but i have a problem. i don't know which show I should audition for. I need some help here. should I do:
Annie Get Your Gun (with Civic)
The last Gladiator (with Theater Arts for Children)
or, Pocahontas (with CYT)
I don't know what I shall doooo!!! they all sound amazingly fun! doing a show for Civic would be a great experience, doing another TAC show would be suuuch a blast, and CYT... well, CYT is kinda my backup plan. if I don't do the other two, I might as well do CYT. :)
I hate decisions... phooy. Help me out here! :D
mmmk. the pain meds are making me very sleepy now. I'm gonna go crash.
ooooor not!! haahahaha!
life is pretty funny. we've been getting a few smacks in the face which are turning out to be kisses from God. ....... hmmm... not sure if that made any sense.. OH WELL! :D
I'm in paaaaain. I got my wisdom teeth out on friday. Joy. It's been pretty rough.. Friday and Saturday were probably the worst days. yesterday was weird because I felt like I could live again, so I tried living, and then I ended up getting really sick towards the end of the day. not good. today I'm trying to take it easy. I hate taking it easy. it sounds so easy and fun, but try doing it when you want to be out and about. *sigh* I don't liiiike it. blah.
have I ever mentioned I love babies? I love them. I LOVE THEM. I freak out when ever I see one anywhere. I'm all "BABBYYYYYY LOOK LOOK IT'S A BABY!!! AHHH!!" and my friends are all "yes Cc, we see the baby, caaaalm down..." I love my friends. they're the best ever. XD I got a baby sitting job for the first time last Saturday. My job was to put these two little girls to bed. no big deal. but I was thrilled. the girls were sooooo sweet and cute and the loved me. I was floating for the next few days. :D
OK, Auditions are coming up in a few weeks. but i have a problem. i don't know which show I should audition for. I need some help here. should I do:
Annie Get Your Gun (with Civic)
The last Gladiator (with Theater Arts for Children)
or, Pocahontas (with CYT)
I don't know what I shall doooo!!! they all sound amazingly fun! doing a show for Civic would be a great experience, doing another TAC show would be suuuch a blast, and CYT... well, CYT is kinda my backup plan. if I don't do the other two, I might as well do CYT. :)
I hate decisions... phooy. Help me out here! :D
mmmk. the pain meds are making me very sleepy now. I'm gonna go crash.
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